Reached a milestone

 I've lost a whole stone and what a relief, feeling better already able to move around instead of waddle its definitely to do with the no carb diet but also been swimming in the sea now that I don't feel so out of breath with the weight I am able to move around and do exercise so all is good at the moment.

Also been back for my third session of counselling she feels the weight loss is the trigger for my lighter mood "ya don't say"!!!!! doesn't take a rocket scientist to work that out. Feeling a lot happier and healthier because I feel more like my old self and its not all to do with looks or being stick thin its how you move around its the breathing difficulties added to the fact that my natural body type is a thin size 8! It stands to reason a size 8 person made size 18 in a very short space of time is going to experience some form of discomfort isn't it?

Anyway booked an appointment to see her at the end of September to check I'm doing ok and will remember to ask her about the post traumatic stuff.

2014 here we come....

Really looking forward to 2014 got a lot that IS going to happen. My partner Lee is going away to do a training course in Rigging he hopes this will set him up for a brand new career, I'm pleased he is moving forward and is not as bothered as he once was about leaving me at home alone. Lee is 13 years younger than myself and as a young man needs to feed his life he is still very young at 33 and deserves a positive break. The course is in Feb so I will be home alone for 3 weeks whilst he is there, when he does qualify it will mean he will be going away to work on a regular basis for 3 weeks stint but then he will also get 3 weeks off, the pay is excellent for this type of work so it means that when he is at home we can go off on holiday and really start enjoying life, we've been through so much together we both deserve something good to happen.

Once Lee has qualified and has done one 3 week stint the pay is so good we will be able to afford to move house which would be amazing! We love where we live but its tainted with whats happened here, yes its by the sea on the south coast of devon, yes its a beautiful area BUT and its a big one its got its down side like we've been here for 9 years we hardly know anyone not for want of trying but because people in these back waters tend to stick together and don't let anyone else in this is exasperated when you get dx with advanced breast cancer people tend to avoid me like the plague! The flat is in a great location but it has no central heating (only an open fire) very old 1950's night storage heaters that don't work properly and cost a fortune also no other services. We are surrounded by trees in quite a large wood sometimes this can get me down as its so dark and I can go for weeks without seeing anyone other than my cats. Solitude is good for the soul but too much of anything is not a good thing.

We are looking to move back up to Somerset and in particular looking at Glastonbury and the surrounding villages, my family don't live that far from this area and I have a lot more friends up there for support its a no brainer really. When we left Somerset 9 years ago it was for a fresh start and too be nearer the coastline and countryside I realise now that I miss the countryside and landscape of Somerset and have an idea about setting up studio/shop in Glastonbury this would really be like a dream come true. So moving is definitely on the cards, as is a new life and lifestyle. I instinctively feel this is a very positive move.

I hope and pray that 2014 will be a much better year and that for once all of my dreams come true. (I believe if you write it down it somehow makes it official and is more likely to come true) Here's my wish list and what I am cosmically ordering for 2014:

1. to continue to get well and healthy and to heal myself of breast cancer

2. for Lee to have some success with his new chosen career path

3. to move house somewhere on the outskirts of Glastonbury to a small cottage with its own garden

4. to be a successful, happy artist (self supporting financially) with my own studio/shop in Glastonbury

5. to have a pet dog and as I'm not going to have children a small dog would be wonderful

6. to go on holiday to the Norwegian Fjords

Happy New Year everyone.
Love and light to you all
Sarah xxxx