The Swallows, Betty and the Surgeon....

As the title might suggest this is a some what melancholy post and I feel I have to warn you that I am particularly low at the moment. I'm not sure why could be to do with yet another of the wonderful ladies on the forum passing (see previous posts), or that quite a few ladies on the FB chat group are suffering and fighting hard, could be just to do with the time of year and the fact that I get very very sad when the swallows leave, it's the final curtain for summer (certainly cold enough!).

The other morning I counted around 50 swallows balancing on the wires, all very active and singing their hearts out it was like the last gathering before the big off. So I bid them farewell for this year and secretly wonder will I still be here to see them return! I think that's what is getting too me.

Tomorrow I see my breast surgeon Dr D., haven't seen him since my mx last year so I think this is just a routine check up appointment, but for some reason I couldn't stop thinking about it last night and ended up getting out of bed at 4 in the morning and reading my Betty Shine books which as it happens is not such a bad thing, Betty died back in 2002 but she was a phenomenal healer/medium/clairvoyant her daughter Janet Shine has produced a website http://www.zitaglio.com/bettyshine/ and channels her mother to provide absent healing, so I have written to her in the hope that she can send me some absent healing.

Its ridiculous but we've just been out blackberry picking and I caught myself crying whilst walking around, I quickly put my sunglasses on to try and hide my tears, and I know its stupid I honestly don't know what I am crying about, as far as all the cancer stuff I'm actually doing really well, I suppose its like a monkey stuck to my back its never far behind me and will always tug at the heart strings as I lament on my life before breast cancer and yearn to be care free and back to my old self. Thank god for this blog, I really needed to let that lot out.
Love and light to all
xxx

Bowen Technique

The latest complementary treatment I have been trying out is called the Bowen Technique, my lymph nurse referred me to a lovely lady called Val and so far I have had two sessions with her at the local hospice where she is based. I have been suffering with constipation probably as a direct result of all the drugs I am on after telling Val about this she tailored her treatment taking this into consideration and after the treatment was finished and later in the day lets just say the problem was resolved, I feel it was the Bowen that helped. Here's a link if your interested http://www.bowen-technique.co.uk/.

I have my yearly appointment with my breast surgeon on Thursday he may offer me a reconstruction I have discussed this with family and friends, but I'm still not sure whether or not to go down the road of more surgery, will keep you all informed how this goes.

Love and light to all xxxxx