2016 TFFT

UPDATE Dec 2015: Finally got in to the Nurse to have the Zoladex shot this went well and as I was in there I asked her to look up and see if my Thyroid results came back, yes they were back but nothing was abnormal cholesterol was on the high side but the Thyroid has gone back to being normal, so where does this leave me, it leaves me feeling stuck and desperate. I spoke with the lovely nurse who gave me the Zoladex and told me about the Thyroid she told me that she found it near impossible to loose weight going through the menopause and she told me that the weight I am carrying is indicative of menopause as its mainly all round my tummy like a tyre. I asked her how she managed to loose weight she told me and I quote "the only way I lost weight going through menopause was by fasting at least 2 days a week" she went on to say "I tried everything, extreme exercise, strict diets everything was tried and I didn't loose a pound!" she advised me to forget about loosing weight as it wouldn't shift until I'd been through the menopause completely something none of us know when we will be through, as for me personally Im in chemical menopause and will go through the menopause naturally again..... when I would of gone through it at a later date until then I have to suffer this dammed affliction and all its barbaric side effects. As you can imagine I'm not exactly on top of the world and am back to square one with the view that the only way to loose weight is to fast!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

And it was just that a Happy New Year spent on top of Glastonbury Tor with my best friend and partner. The view was spectacular you can see for 25 miles all around from the top of the Tor, the weather was clear and cold, the moon was out and the stars, people let off fireworks all around us at the stroke of midnight it looked magical, a beautiful spectacular night, all three of us thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. Can't believe I managed to get up there a lot of huffing and puffing and sitting down about 25 mins in all but I did it I managed to get up the Tor, something I've always wanted to do on new year.

Words of wisdom from across the pond

Since I had left the british Breast cancer care site I have moved over to using the American site, its a lot easier to use and actually works properly. I found this posted after a comment I made and found it touched somewhere deep inside and spoke to me of a truth I had been missing.

I have to share some of the pastor's sermon from this morning. The message was that practicing an activity over and over makes us better at it; practicing good makes us better at being good, practicing bad makes us better at being bad. 

The other part of the message was that it's OK to be angry - but interpreted as "being outraged at wrongs" - such as injustice, poverty, etc. It should prompt us to address the wrongs to help those who are unable to stand up for themselves. 

So, I know that by sharing experiences, loving kindness, and acceptance of each others' experiences, we are practicing "doing good" and we are sharing the outrage at the injustice of breast cancer and its effects, and hopefully helping all of us to get through it. 

Another snippet from our friends across the pond, this puts it all in perspective putting the pieces together in a coherent way, facing the reality that is.

After time has past, in my opinion, it doesn't matter what you eat, drink, breath, absorb, worry, gene-pool-inherit, nor-where you live at any one point, "unless you live near a nuclear reactor", that it makes a-sceric of difference why this mutation occurs, its the Zillion $$ question, It maybe simply that all or some of the above needs to cross paths at the same time, in order for the mutant-dual-receptor-mutation to take place, and maybe add the stress-factor scenario, immune-suppressor to miss one of our own cells running over-time....Im guessing one day researcher will find a simple explanation for this and it may-well of been sitting right under our noises all the time !!!
Love and light xx