The best news ever.....

Wanted to share my unbelievable amazing news with you all. Saw my onc today he told me that " the lung mets have disappeared" and my lungs are now clear. I sat there in total shock and can't believe how lucky I am, it appears that something is working at getting rid of the bad cells. All the drugs ie: hereceptin/tamoxifen, jucing, hemp oil (early days), the supplements and the weekly spiritual healing are all worth while, obviously we can't say exactly what it was that obliterated them but the important thing to remember is that something did work. 

There was only one grey area and thats on my liver there is a mass there but they still cannot define exactly what it is it could be cancer that is stable or it could be fatty tissue, my onc is writing to the radiologist to ascertain what tests we can do to find out exactly what it is that shows up on the scans whatever it is has been static and non moving now for quite a long time and he wasn't overly worried about it although he did say we are going to keep an eye on it with 3 monthly scans. 

As for the subcut herceptin I'm to have my first 2 lots in the hospital so thats all booked in and I've decided not to give up on my hospital just yet.

Apologies to you all for not coming on sooner and posting but up until yesterday I was on  a huge downer and needed something positive to give me a boost, this is the best possible outcome I could of wanted. I feel like I can start my life all over again, I feel like I've been given a second chance. I am so utterly grateful to still be here.

Sending you all love and light
Sarah xxx

Natures Nudge.....

I was awoken this morning at stupid oclock (5am) to an ecstatically happy cat rubbing himself all over me, purring his head off all because..... because he was hungry, nope, because he wanted to go out yes in part but mainly because it was a new morning, a new day, and he was over joyed to be alive, he's given me a gentle nudge and reminded me that life is something to be rejoiced and revelled in. So this post is too thank my beautiful cat Ted whom I love with all my heart and who never ceases to amaze me. Bless you Ted and Mitzi I love you both.

Stretchy Ted xx

Where's your head at?

Ok so I think its about time I filled you in on where I'm at at this particular moment in time. Obviously I'm still receiving Herceptin and taking daily Tamoxifen, I haven't had a whole body CT scan for about 8 month's now and feel I've gradually slipped into my new life post Cancer. However, I'm not the same person I was before and have changed almost everything about myself and my life. I continue to eat healthy and avoid red meat (I only eat free range chicken once a month) other than that I eat fish, eggs and pro-biotic organic yoghurt. I try to juice at least 3 times a week (I was doing this daily for just over 2 years) I've cut it down as I've started to feel better and believe juicing 3 times a week is sufficient in keeping my body both alkaline and healthy.  I continue to go for healing at least once a week this is very necessary and life re-affirming, I can't live without it. I try to meditate daily or at the very least weekly and I attend a weekly meditation group where we concentrate on healing. Yoga has become a weekly practice which also helps with the meditation. Another massive plus is I've started painting again and I feel ok about it. I'm in the middle of painting a couple of new collections and finished off old paintings this has proved to be quite cathartic and has brought me a new lease of life.

Occasionally I slip into my old mind set but I do recognise that this is not healthy and more importantly I am aware of it and try to nip it in the bud before it takes hold of me. Negative thought patterns are not tolerated anymore. This is easier said than done of course as the mind is a powerful manipulator, it also doesn't help when other people pass away or deteriorate with this disease, I can't help getting upset when someone passes even though I know they are going 'home' back to their natural spiritual state. I try to remind myself that this reaction to someones passing is natural and needs to be embraced worked through and ultimately let go of.

In answer to the title of this post my head is in a good place at the moment, I am positive and I've started to plan for the future something I never thought I'd be able to do especially on the work front. I've decided that I want to become a further education teacher possibly teaching foundation in art at a college as well as finishing my current paintings is my goal at the moment, myself and my partner have other plans but I'm going to try and stay focused on my current projects.

Causes of Cancer environmental or emotional..........

The blog Spiritual-light-on-Cancer asks the question Causes of Cancer: Environmental or Emotional? Fiona asks questions through a spiritual medium and receives answers from her Guides, this particular post looks at the causes of cancer asking is it environmental or emotional? this is an excellent question and totally unique response.

FIONA: I am thinking about the causes of cancer. Some say it is caused by toxic emotions; others that it is caused by environment toxins. Can you shed any light on this? GUIDES: Yes. We take you back to what we initially said on this subject. Cancer is one of the ways the body will choose as a means to exit life. When you are looking to exit life the body will begin to accumulate matter in the body as the system becomes sluggish towards life in general. Think about it. You move less when you are unhappy and your thoughts become far more polluted in their nature. The mechanisms for exit can be physical in nature. But by the time they become physical in nature, such as the body has manifested a mass or masses, which can be diagnosed as cancer, there has been a great build up to this point. Although it seems to those of you diagnosed it has been overnight, there has been a build up towards this. Now all of you are right in thinking that it is a genetic issue, and that it is a mental issue, and that it is a toxic issue. The mechanism that causes the manifestation of disease in the individual is individual. But what must be noticed is the commonality with all of you that end up with a diagnosis of cancer, is that there has been an activation of the desire to exit life. For most of you this will have been on an unconscious, subconscious level. You will probably not have realised you are doing this so you must look to reclaim your joire de vivre. This is the most important message we can ever give you . You understand this, Fiona. This becomes difficult for you when you see it manifesting in other ways in other people. You have been to the point where you are considering your own mortality and you know how it feels. You know how it feels to try and get a sense of self and a sense of living back. It is hard. It is much easier to become more full of life without a diagnosis of cancer than it is with one. However, should you wish to remain healthy and you have the strength to do so, engage with life. How do you do this? This is individual to each of you. It will be important that all of you think about what you need to do for your healing. If your body has a level of toxicity or pollutants in it, then cleanse it. But do this lovingly- not aggressively- for cleansing the body aggressively simply adds more of the wrong input into the system. What do we mean? It is simply another thing about how bad my life is. We would rather you ate a chocolate bar at this point, if that is what would make you happier. All of you who are willing to do so, please take a look at the contents of your thoughts. You are not taught to think about your thoughts. You are not taught that you are a creator of your thoughts. Instead you are left with a mind that talks and many of you for want of a better word or phrase aren’t aware of the direction you are driving yourself. So when you come to a stop such as a diagnosis of cancer, and you do not wish for your life to end, it is time to turn around.
Taken from the excellent blog http://spiritual-light-on-cancer.blogspot.co.uk/2013/06/causes-of-cancer-enviromental-or.html

Breaking News..........New drug for HER2

New drug for HER2 positive breast cancer being developed over in the states here's the link to more scientific information http://www.roche.com/media/media_releases/med-cor-2013-02-22.htm. Hopefully it will filter through to the UK at some point. xxx

Back to Buckfastleigh........

I posted a little over a year ago about dropping into Buckfast Abbey after a particularly fraught session of radiotherapy and on entering the actual Abbey was over come with emotion and tears, I later found out via a vicar friend of mine that what I was experiencing was to do with the fact that I was in a holy place or as the celtic peoples called it 'thin places' a place where heaven and earth overlap because of this particularly sensitive people like myself are moved to tears with sheer emotion, on this visit I am happy to report a much happier me and no more tears, the Abbey is a special place but I take the lack of emotion or tears as a good sign of my own strength and healing, I lit a candle and said a prayer for our recent loses ie: Laurie and Lisa god bless them, and I wrote out a message to the monks asking them to continue to pray for myself and all others affected by this disease. When I left the Abbey the sun had come out and it truly feels like spring albeit a little bit late.

Other things have been happening, I've started painting again, this is a big positive as I thought I'd never paint again, I am currently painting my contribution to the Royal Academy in submission for the Summer Show 2013 its the first time I've ever entered.

I woke up this morning and had a prophetic dream in so far as I could remember it word for word and I had a message from an old friend weirdly enough a friend that I associate with horses and today is....Grand National Day.... so in the spirit of nothing ventured nothing gained I've put a couple of bets on, see if my prediction will come true, if nothing else it adds a bit of excitement.

Regular readers will know that I've been looking to move this has proved to be very difficult as basically I am without a job (made redundant then got breast cancer) and my partner was made redundant so we are skint and currently living on benefits (which is very hard) I have done some work from home but its never enough, in order to move we need about 2 grand (we rent) I've tried selling everything, my partner has picked up bits of work but nothing concrete and permanent, luckily we did have one asset worth a thousand pounds and this has now sold today, so we have a grand towards the big move. I'm hoping that things will carry on improving and we will continue on this lucky streak, we deserve some good luck.

Hope to heal

I've found these films on cancer and present quite a case see what you think:

http://youtu.be/GXg0D9jBsCM

This one is by Bernie Siegel the writer of Love, Medicine and Miracles worth a watch:

http://youtu.be/GXg0D9jBsCM